Sunday, July 12, 2009

Noah David Collinsworth

Noah was born on July 7, 2009 and died sometime before that in the womb. I can't really understand everything that happened Monday night and Tuesday Morning. We spent 7 months dreaming about what Noah would look like, what Ethan would say about his new brother, how we would pay for him, what daycare he would be in, and dreams of how life was going to change from 1 perfect baby boy to 2 perfect baby boys. All those dreams disappeared in about 5 seconds. Life will never be the same for us. We are so thankful to have Ethan. He cheers us up and reminds us that he is not going anywhere. In fact he has been acting out to get our attention in the evenings. I think He knows how sad his mama is.
Tanner, my dog never sits next to Lisa. He always comes by me because we are buddies. He has taken every chance he can to be close to Lisa. We have received so much food it's amazing. It really helps alot. It's kinda exciting to see what's coming each night. I never understood how important that is until now.
I want to take a moment to brag on my wife Lisa. She has been so strong during this time. Not afraid to say goodbye. Not afraid to grieve with others. Not afraid to withstand the pain of a c-section. Not afraid to come home. She is amazing.

Proverbs 16:9 "9 In your heart you plan your life.
But the Lord decides where your steps will take you."

We didn't plan on going this direction. God decides the direction....